Testimonies.... in the holy spirit. Not only has God stamped my heart for the fellowship and learning with my church family my church, but He has shown me that he is my bread of life, my Lord. I always said, if something was to ever happen to my dad, I don't know what I would do. I assumed that I would be beside my self. Funny thing is, I am. One the day that I received the unexpected call, I was very distraught. The call never said for certain of the situation, but other happenings had my mind made up. Being almost 2 hours away from him, I had time to kind of regroup and gather my thoughts. No one would really tell me what was actually happening, but calls of comfort had already started coming in. I just calmed down with a moment of silence with tears running down my face. Then a calm assurance came over me and I was with peace. Of course I had asked God why. It was his time to go home. Be grateful that he didn't have to suffer. I said thank you to God. Throughout the next few days, He had to tap me on my shoulder a few times with the same reminder. I was stronger than I thought I could ever be, for my mom. There were times that I wowed myself. But I know that it wasn't me, it was He who strengthens me, and it still is.
On one of my rough days, I was talking to God and I asked him, "I just wish I could see his face just one more time." People always said be careful what you ask for......a couple of nights later, my dad was in a dream clear as day with my pawpaw coming into a house to see me. There were no words said, but there was comfort in my heart.
Just the other day, God gave me more to witness about. While talking to a friend of the family, in a regular conversation, she says "Your dad says he is proud of you." I asked what? And busted out crying. She kind of shook her head apologizing saying that she had to, she was sorry. I have been through some rough patches in life, but I have always been a daddy's girl. I am grateful that I had the opprotunity to tell both of my parent's how much I appreciated and how grateful I am to have them as my parent's, but I wanted to hear them say that they were proud of me. So when she said that out of the blue, I know it was from God.
God knows all. While I was searching, you have been there all along. My earthly father was "my everything" on earth, God is my everything everywhere. God stamped my heart a long time ago, blessing me with so much. I maybe didn't realize it a long time ago, but my gratefulness and willingness to abide means much more. Thank you Lord for all that you have done, and all that you are going to do. I ask that you continue to use me. Use me in the eyes of the boys and girls in Kenya. Let your light shine through me. In Jesus' name ..... Amen
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